Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Why I Almost Deleted This Blog
I have been thinking a lot. About this blog, about my Barefoot Books business that I love, about my philanthropic mission, a couple of new business ventures and my own creative time. Along with trying to somewhat homeschool my son and keep up with his hot mess toddler sister, things can get quite crazy, especially when sometimes the day to day chores get out of hand. Obviously, I haven't set myself up for success here. Something is going to have to leave or wait.
I tend to be a very all or nothing person...if I know I have a blog, I am going to ideally want to be ALL.OVER.IT. with posts everyday and links on every social media channel. I am going to want to be sad when my readership is at the level it is. I am going to want to be a photographer because my photos suck compared to xyz blog and I am going to want to learn how to......
And those thoughts are what got me to wake up and realize that the madness has to stop.
I don't have to post every day, or even every week to be the blogger I set out to be. I set out to connect with people and to share what I love. I did not start this blog to get a huge following (of course it would be nice to have someone read this) or to review products (I got sucked into this, and then realized that the time I was using to take the surveys for the "free" product was costing me precious creative time, plus there are other bloggers who review stuff way better than I have patience to do myself. I will just read their reviews!). For my mental sanity, I had to stop. If I am super excited about something, I am going to blast it out over social media anyway.
I don't have to get my new business ventures up and running in the next 6 months. I just don't. So I mentally have to move these things aside and let myself THINK. And can you guess what was consuming my free thinking time? Facebook on my phone. I deleted it 2 weeks ago (if I remember correctly) and it has been the single most thing that has relaxed me, made me more focused and more sane. Getting updates and constantly seeing updates to stories that are not urgent was making me feel like a rat on a wheel.
I love being with my family, books, thrifting, food and sewing. I hope my blog and social media will reflect that, so I can connect with you, my readers.
If you read this entire post, thank you.