Full disclosure: this is going to be more of a "personal" post than usual. There will be no pinterest worthy images, no links and lists. Just my thoughts. After more than a week of a non blogging streak, I hesitate to share this post. I just. cant. blog.
I know why, a little bit.
I am not a photographer and am fully aware that my pictures need help. I have been stressing about the quality of photos and about whether the photo is pinterest ready or not for months. I don't know how to take great pictures of my awesomely thrifted outfits. There are a lot of things I am good (even great) at. But blogging is not one of them. For someone like me, that is quite hard to admit. To admit, to recognize...and to continue. So often I feel that if this blog isn't "professional" enough then its probably not worth my time or yours.
But I know that is not true. For me, I need to blog. For me, blogging started as a way to connect. Blogging (for me and so many others) is not about bragging, or anything like that. Blogging and posting on FB is about connecting and sharing experiences and taking those connections to in person interactions.
Blogging is pushing me to lean new things, some of which hurt my head. Blogging is reminding me that I CAN walk away and pick back up again. Blogging is reminding me that I am ME. Blogging is forcing me to stop comparing myself to famous bloggers who do what they do so well. Because blogging is not #1 for me. It is not my job, so why am I comparing this hobby, this outlet of mine to other brilliant women whose blogs are their work, women who have put in the time and effort to make their blogs great? I need to be fair to myself.
Where does all this lead? I think, here: as women, as bloggers, as mothers....we need to be fair to ourselves and give ourselves a break. Really.
There's a saying: You can eat an elephant one bite at a time.
ReplyDeleteMeaning, of course, that in time, even the largest things can be accomplished.
I try to take one thing per week and focus on that. Even if I don't meet my goal that week, I know I've worked towards it.
Comparing is only helpful if it leads to growth. You're doing the best right where you're at.
I'm so glad you're not quitting blogging. Prioritizing what it is in your life and why you do it definitely helps guide what you do want to do with it. And it sounds like you're on the right track. I love your blog and learning about thrifting and the projects you do and the books you share. I'll keep coming back and I hope you'll be here, blogging about what you want to blog about, when I do. ;)
ReplyDeleteComparison is hard. Try to glean something from the blogs you love while remembering how much value is in blogging for yourself. It's okay to have goals and aspirations and continue learning without having to tear yourself down.
ReplyDeleteI love the passion and truth and honesty in this post. To pieces. Love it.
ReplyDeleteI'm learning that Sometimes I need to change my goals or be happy with it taking longer to meet them,
ReplyDeleteGreat thoughts! I've found myself comparing and stressing about numbers but then I've remembered I blog for me, to document my family to put our memories somewhere easily accessible. And when I get back to reality I enjoy blogging. I like your thoughts on this and it helps me remember where to keep my head.
ReplyDeleteLoved your very honest post. I feel the same way :)
ReplyDeleteYou're way ahead of me! :) Don't be so hard on yourself.
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